While I was drawing this, ‘The Peace of Mind Pigeon’, I listened to this.
It took me back to an unpleasant, truly miserable time, when I thought positive affirmations would repair my heart, and as a knock-on effect, my life.
Louise Hay had been recommended as saviour, so I bought How to Heal Your Life and the accompanying homework book.
Following Lousie’s strict, but loving, instructions, I remember standing in front of the mirror chanting, ‘I love and approve of myself, I trust in the process of life always to be there for me,…’ the rest I can’t remember.
What I do remember, standing there, staring directly into my semi-lifeless eyes, is that, not only did I HATE myself, but I no longer even recognised myself.
And no repetitive, desperate chant was going to save me.
So I went to the doctor and got some Prozac and 3 weeks worth of sleeping pills.
And that did the trick!
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